Woke up in the morning, didn't feel like P diddy. But I felt really sick. Runny nose and countless tissues I've used up so far. Bad start in the morning cos I stayed over at my cuzzie's place last night, Jurong West. And I've forgotten that the train service will be affected at Jurong! So took train from Boon Lay MRT Station, then get down at Lake Side MRT station and then go to Jurong East MRT Station, then take a shuttle bus from there to Clementi and then take train from Clementi to Tanjong Pagar. Major FML! Usually it takes only 20mins to reach and today it takes 1hr and 15mins! dammit.

This is the crowd at Lake Side MRT. Super madness! One uncle almost got clamped in between the doors cos he wanna rush into the train when the door is closing.

This is the stupid yellow barrier at Jurong East. While changing to shuttle bus. Gotta walk left right left right until giddy plus my sickness! Made me even crankier!

@#$%

I was blasting and bombarding my twitter cos I was soooo mad cranky. I told myself, I can't take cab this month and I almost broke it. Cos I was waiting for a cab at Jurong West, wanted to take to Clementi to save time but apparently, it seems like West side taxi drivers don't wake up early on a Saturday morning. And there's TOO MANY people fighting for cabs. So, god decided that I should save my money too. HAHA. Oh well, it's better to be late than never right? (:

Gonna meet my mum at Ang Mo Kio cos we're getting the camcorder for my dad, cos they're flying to China for 10 days! I'm sooo gonna miss them like hell ): and my dog is gonna suffer from depression again. Sighh. Yeah. After meeting my mum, gonna meet Theresa and Noelle to get some stuff and Ah Bo Ling session at FEP! Yayness~

I officially tendered my resignation from this company on 30th August 2010. I'm giving up a 10am to 5pm job which I probably cannot find anywhere anymore. I'm giving up a job which pays me to do practically nothing and it's a job everybody will die for cos you'll get paid for doing nothing and mind you, the pay is not low at all. Sitting infront of the desktop, answering phonecalls, noting down appointments, keying in the data to system and sending out e-mails. I'm giving up just cos my passion is not in this line. I'm not that kinda person who likes getting their butt glued to the chair. All I want is my life back, my life is passion. Not going out everyday that kinda life you're thinking. All I want is to find a job that suits me and a job that can really make me feel happy again. I do not want to drag myself to work every single day, I want to be able to open up myself, to explore instead of isolating myself in the office. This is totally the opposite from what I really want in life.

What I'm gonna do now is to pray to god that I can finally find something, something which I've been waiting for so long. And please let that day come soon ♥

I feel like crap today cos I didn't really sleep well. Only slept at 4am cos was on the phone with bbyku. Heehe. It's been so long (: And I woke up late.. again. haaha. I just told my mum the other day that I was really proud of myself that I always take MRT to work and not once I took a cab ever since I joined this company 5 months ago. Well, I almost broke it today. Cos I was waiting for cab and there's none in sight. So I conclude that, god wants me to save money as well. Hooray. Back then, when I was working at Starbucks, I take cab so often that I think I spent half of my pay on cab. I'm not even kidding or exaggerating.

Oh well, anyhowsss... I can't wait for Step up 3 later!

 Noelle watched it and she say it's way better than Part 1 & 2. OMG. 9.20pm please come quickly. I can't wait I can't wait! (:  Fish&Co Express at Downtown East is always ♥ And I'm salivating in the office right now. LOL. The thought about it make me go WOOOHOOOO~ (((:

On a serious note, I've officially deleted that bastard from my FB. No point just parking the name and I don't like to see the people I don't like/don't really talk to in FB. Call me arrogant or snobbish, I don't care. You can even call me a bitch cos I know I am most of the time. Especially to those people who have no work, nothing to do at home and provoke me on purpose, going around telling people different stories. I don't call that "FRIEND". So go on, now go. I was just talking to bbyku on the phone this morning(the long long convo), I don't need many friends around me, too many friends causes unhappiness and conflicts. I know who's there and who's not. I can tell right from wrong, unlike other people. I admit sometimes I need to play along with hypocrites and that's part and parcel of life. I am gonna meet Mevis tomorrow after talking about meeting up for the longest time and apparently we'll be meeting at Kallang and I can sense that World War is coming again cos someone is joining too, though much digest I felt. Uggghhh. Sighh. I'll just enjoy today, and we shall see how it goes tomorrow. Gotta go back to doing my stuff now, I hate to work on a Saturday. taaaa~

But I do not give shit about this anymore. You fucking moron. Putting words in other people's mouth and making someone your scapegoat when IT IS clearly your fault. Do not push the fucking blame on others cos the fault lies with you. Don't come telling me I do not know what's wrong when there's not a single communication from you. I have to fucking chase you for the money and your reply will always be the same. " they're releasing the payment next week" and your supposedly "next week" never comes! FUCK YOU,ASSHOLE. Thanks for letting me burst out yesterday, it was a opportunity that is hard to come by. You asked for it. Get your fucking facts right and stop all your false accusations, right now!

I'm not in the mood to do any work today. Put on Youtube to make me laugh, it helped. Just a lil bit. It's 1.21pm now and I've yet to go for my lunch break. Feeling so lethargic and I'm lazy to get my arse up. I've tonnes of work to do but I'm only doing afew. Afew of what I can manage, mentally. I fucking hate myself for being so emotional. Cos I've never ever felt this way before. No matter how fucked up life can be, I'm still strong. Guess those days it's because I'm working in F&B and I've too many things to do, walking here and there,  and thus I don't think too much about it. Now, working in the office is HORRIBLE, cos things just kept appearing in my head and everytime it happens, I wanna kill someone! I don't even wanna reply any smses or calls. Except for my office phone, which kept ringing non stop.  Arghhh. I'm afraid I can't take it any longer. Troubles, please go away. I do not wanna see you here. Sighh.

I'm lying on my bed. Slowly waiting for the insomnia to go off. I'm in the state whereby everything else doesn't matter anymore. Found myself awake in this ungodly hour. Why am I doing this to myself? Woke up halfway cos I slept through dinner and was feeling hungry. Looked at my phone and saw the text that you sent, I snuggled in my blanket and tears flowed down my cheeks quietly. Zzzz monster please kick in soon. I need you so badly.

I was in the train when I felt my tears and I was on the brink to breaking down infront of thousands of people in the train. But I held back my tears. I tried. Thinking back on what I've said, I really pricked my mum's heart. I left home in a huff and I was in tears. I loathe to go home as much as I wanna be comfortable like how it used to be. I hate my brother. He's the fucking reason as to why all this is happening. FML for having this kinda useless brat at home. Good for nothing.

I need to move out. If one day, I can't tolerate all these anymore. I'm fucking going crazy and I won't hesitate to kill someone. I swear.